Alone

Seriously can't remember when was the last time I actually stayed home the entire day.This is just one of those nights where I reflect and feel tired for myself. I am not complaining about all the late nights out and occupied days btw, just feeling hectic and the need to have some time to be alone (not lonely). Feel like having time away from everyone and my phone just so I can plug in my own music, read some good books/magazines, paint my nails, rewatch movies and do whatever I like for myself.

Change

 'To make or become different'

 

And funny how people always make change sounds bad and  expect someone to not change at all. I mean, it is not always good but isn't 'change' just another phase? Maybe 'change' happens everyday just that, it is sometimes too mild to be noticed. I guess what we can't probably deal with is the sudden change or when things or people change out of your expectation. I gotta admit, I do change and it's not always for the better because I make bad decisions and take wrong chances and likewise, I have also experienced bad changes (there are good ones too) from people and I know how much it sucks. I know 'change'  is sometimes scary, bad and whatever shit but it is seriously inevitable so just learn to poker face and suck it up. We are just human and we do change.

Day 10: 1 person I can trust.

That one person I could ever trust would be my mother and I hope she can be here with me, forever.
I actually thought of writing someone else, other than my only mum because the answer 'mother' is quite duh~ right. However, she fits in the best already for one, she will never judge her own daughter.
School has been always boring so I shall not talk about it. Attachment centre was supposedly good but I think it changes after the second time there. 20 more sessions to go. I can do it!

Day 9: 2 things I wish I could do.

Okay, the official number 1 realistic thing that I wish to do is to provide my mum with an extremely good life, probably as soon as possible. To start off with, I really love my mom a lot and it is true that they say, ' Of a certain mature age, you would be willing to give everything you have, just for your mother to be with you forever.' It was never true before the age of 15 years old but now, when I realised how true it is going to be for the rest of my life, I regretted my first 15 years of life being disobedient, rebellious, rude, worrying and sometimes even hateful towards my mum. Have you really wondered how would life be without your mum and how scary and painful it is to lose her? If the answer is, ' I can't even bear to think about it.', you are almost of the mature age of cherishing you mother in a better way. I dare not even think about a day, without my mum here with me. Outsiders have no idea how much hardships she had gone through and truly, I will never understand her struggles and pain during then, even though I had heard of those heart breaking moments for more than 5 times. My heart always sank whenever she tried to relate but the kind of heartache is nothing compared to hers. Most noble of all is, at the midst of trying to be strong again, she still carries out her mother's duties beautifully. I can never be as strong/noble/capable as my mother and it is not because I am weak, it's just that she is almost incredible. My love for my mother is still considered selfish love and I believe she knows that too. Which is then why I am amazed by the selfless love she is constantly giving, without hoping anything in return. I am shameful for my own selfish love. I can never measure how much she has been doing for the entire family and I can never return what she has given. Hence the only way to repay is to, hopefully being able to provide her with a good life.  Edric always tells me, 'It's not giving her the best thing in the world, it is giving her the best you can.' and I want my best to be somewhat the best in the world, at least for my mother. I love her a lot and it is very illogical but true to say that, I can never love her as much as how she has loved me.

Second on the list would be, rescuing the dogs. I really have a thing for dogs and puppies and as I am typing this away, I am questioning myself, 'why not cats? humans? babies? orphan?'. I have no answer and please don't say I have lost my mind, like how the hell can dogs be of more importance than human lives...To put it simply and shortly, we cause harm and dangers to the animals so it is only right that we  save them too right?

Day 8: 3 Words I can't go a day without using.

They are common words for me and you.
Hello.
Think.
Okay.

More about food.

 1. Menu. 2. The Handburger Original with added sunny side up.
 3. The works. 4.Nutella with Marshmallow.
 This place isn't to my liking actually because strangely, I never like burgers. Okay, maybe Ramily LOL LOL. I have always passed by The Handburger @ Somerset 313, but never once have I settled my meal there, only till yesterday (I ate at Raffles City Shopping Centre.) The burgers, to me, were so-so but the milkshake was too good for someone like me, who doesn't like milk/creamy stuff. I would say, it is one of the nicest I have ever drank. Edric, on the other hand, thinks the place was of good quality. He said their beef, soup and drinks were all good and the place gives generous servings. I couldn't finished the given portion.  I would probably not go back anymore unless someone close to me really wants to go there and if so, I would probably just order those miniature burger, soup and the drink.

1. Menu. 2. Pan seared Alaskan Salmon. 3. Me.

4. Him. 5. Steamed Lobster. Oreo Cheesecake.

This place is actually good for a decent date if you are lucky enough to avoid those peak hours at night. It can be quite noisy because of it's good business and hence,  This place is highly recommended for fish lovers. They are special in a way that, they bring in many kinds of fishes, flown in from all over the world, so that you can be spoilt for choices while selecting 'your choice' and then you can choose how you would like 'your choice' to be done. Example, fry, pan seared, grilled, bake &etc.  Apart from the fresh fishes, I personally think that they have the best mushroom soup in Singapore. It is a must-have whenever I'm there.

Tel: 6467 4950

Address: No.34 &38 Greenwood Avenue, Singapore 289236

 

1. Tropical Tea Latte & Iced Caramel. 2. Scramble eggs with smoked salmon & pancakes. 3. Chocolate cake.

 

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Alright, gonna sleep pretty soon because I had bloody insomnia last night. Boo to school tomorrow and the 3 hours break in between. 4 more days to weekend, let's go!

A little of everything

1. Grilled Atlantic Cod. 2.Chocolate Moelleux.
You should totally try their White Chocolate Souffle. It is so fluffy, you will dieeee. I love dining at this place, not really for the food, but for the ambience. The food is not kind of fantastic but their standard is slightly higher than average. Not only is the ambience good, just their dessert alone is worth a trip down to their restaurant.
Address
39C Harding Road

1. Roasted Duck from Imperial Treasure @ Orchard Ion
2. Italian Ham Salad from Trattoria Italian Kitchen @ Somerset 313
3. Wow Wow West from Best Fries Forever @ Cineleisure, Ice cream from Coldrock @ Somerset 313
4. Prawns and Salmon sashimi from Kiseki @ Orchard Central.
5. Self-scooped ice cream from Kiseki
6. Self-cooked Ham&Sausage Baked Macaroni
7. Om-Nom-Nom from Udders @Upper Thomson
8. Ice cream flavours from Ice Cream Chef
9. Ice cream with waffles from Ice Cream Chef.

                                                                     7 Adam

2. The dining place area.
4. I have forgotten the name for this but it was some tuna.
5. Beef and bacon linguine with tobiko, this is our utmost favourite dish from the restaurant.
6. Braised beef cheek, mash of yam.
7. Soup of the day, which I forgot it's name again.
8. Decorative chilli statue that cost $88,000 (for the shorter one).
9. The entrance.
This restaurant, we assume, has really nice pasta. The beef and bacon linguine was something that we have never tasted before so we thought it was quite special and for the braised beef cheek, I highly recommend it to be a sharing dish because after awhile, it can be quite sick. The beef tasted good but not the sauce and those little balls. We ordered ravioli of prawn in lobster cream too but I forgot to take pictures of it. This restaurant has rather small servings of food and it is quite pricey.
Address
7 Adam Park Singapore 289926

1. Treats to the face.
2. Fish eye effect.
3. USS (Transformer ride was so fun!)
4. Outfit of the day, to Kiseki
5. Michael's birthday celebration.
6. Declan and I before heading out to USS.
7. Kobe deep asleep in between the pillows.
8. Self shot.
9. Chika, baby poodle. We actually wanted to name her Aiko but my dad then decided to call her Chika.
Rare chance for her to be staying over at my place because Kobe dislikes her. So she will mostly be at my dad's place. She is so small, like 1/2 of Kobe's size, and she probably weighs slightly less than a kilogram. Dont be deceived by her depressed look on the picture, she is super cheeky and active.

Anyway, school has started and so far, it is boring. I feel so suffocated and stressed after looking at the overview of deadlines which are being lined back to back.  Anyway, I will be attached to The Little Skoolhouse @Khoo Teck Puat hospital so I think this sem's goal is to work well with the children's parents who are the doctors there.

Till the next! Bye!

Day 7: 4 Memories that I won't forget.

1. Being accused and humiliated in my primary school days. Not to name the teacher, but she was extremely bias. Back then, I was rather close friend with this girl, A, whom was quite well known to be unreasonably hot tempered and beacuase of that, she was not well like by peers in school? Anyway, she had this little diary which she always put it in her bag. The diary she had, comes with a lock and a pair of keys. She handed one of her keys to me to safe-guard it, just in case if she were to lose hers. So i had the key kept in one of the comparts of my school bag. Some of those people who dislike her were my basketball mates and so we hang out quite frequently. During the days, A would stay back with me and while I played basketball, she would be doing her reading. I honestly don't know how it happened that one of the basketballers managed to get her diary, and the key in my bag. They unlocked the diary and began to read out loud to A. Of course, A got very upset and assumed that I was the one who gave them the key. She went to report to her teacher, who was my P.E teacher. So the very next P.E lesson was horrible. She made quite a few nasty remarks and the one line that I couldn't forget would be, ' I really hate some betrayer (staring at me), I hope she is not in my class (and everyone turned to look at me).'
I would say, I was bloody humiliated and embarrased.

2. The last day of 2009. I don't want to mention this but this is something that I am sure that I will not forget the entire life. I spent the new year countdown with Edric and the day ended so happily. At then, he already has a car so the time we had strolling together lessened. So that day we went for a really long walk, it was nice. I reached my doorstep with an extremely happy mood until I realised I have no keys and the only one in the house was sleeping like a log. Checked my phone, it said almost no battery. So I immediately called Edric, hoping he would U-turn and come back for me.  Sadly, he didn't. I was extremely pissed and sad, thinking, why would any boyf leave the gf outside at fucking 2-3a.m? I quickly dropped Liran a text and my phone died. That night I constantly questioned myself, why did I made that hopeful las phone call to him. Shall not elaborate what happened after next.... I look back and wonder why didn't I break up with him at that point of time. Hahhaa. For now, I believe he will never ever leave in the lurch anymore.

3. The day I got Kobe. He was the perfect gift for Chrismas. There he was, the 2.5 months old baby with messy hair and weird smell, biting a milk stick and was being carried into my house. The moment we had him on the floor, he began to sniff everywhere and headed beside my mum. At least, I was excited. I went down to buy some milk and bread for him just in case he was hungry. I remember how my mum was telling him how smelly was he and he jumped up and barked at my mom. He was just like a baby at night, sleeping so sweetly. During the middle of the night, he started whining, which was believed to be looking for his mum.............. He was like this on his first day.

4. The good old days when I was young, sharing the showering cubicle with my cousins who were staying together with me. I hope this doesn't sound gross or pervertic hahahaha. We would always make bubbles out of soap and dance around liek some idiots and the famous song was always, ' JEE JEE PONG PONG, NI DONG BU DONG....' Those days were carefreeeee.

with ferry much love,

Complain Queen

Hello folks. Here I am sitting next to the mj table, writing this post via my phone. It's 2o'clock right now and I can't help but to countdown, sadly, to school reopening. In exactly 31 hours time, the school is gonna effing reopens. LESIGH!!! I can totally see myself in a foul mood on the first day of school. Not only will I have insufficient sleep, I will also be stuck in those peak hours jam.  In the firat place, i dont even know if i will be awake for school. Right now, i wake up at at least 2p.m and this timing is nearly school dismissal time. Argh I hate how ngee Ann is that far away from my place..  Most hated thing on the list would be, wakin up at those ungodly A.M. Ugh. Starting to see the stress coming from attachment. Aiya I want it to pass absolutely quickly but at the same time, I want to enjoy every minute as a student. Totally have no idea of what I am going to do after the poly years. Tell me!! FYI, the chances of me staying in the early childhood industry is close to impossible. Don't ask me why! I am just so not cut out for the children.. Kay, bye!

Overdue: Sentosa trip.

I know it is pretty much overdue but just let me blog about it okay. No matter what, it was still our first time visiting Sentosa together (despite being together for 3 years). You wouldn't have guessed that it was his idea to go there. He is just someone whom doesn't like to be under the sun but for some reasons, he suddenly suggested to go there because he wanna get tanned. Hmm I see that NS life has slightly altered him. Okay, here are the pictures! Sadly, we didn't take any pictures when we were on the luge. Promise to be there for that again. It's so fun, maybe because it was my first time riding it.

 

 

 

I was under the shelter like 3/4 of the time when we were tanning and sadly, I think I got more tanned than my boyf! Ugh. It's time to get prepared and wait for the army boy to book out! Gonna have crab for dinner at Cajun King's.. GO GO TRY THEM!!

with ferry much love,