Matthew's 21st birthday

I know I am very behind time. All of these recent posts are quite overdue as they all happened weeks ago. Nevertheless, happy things are still worth jotting down. Was feeling tired at the beginning of the day, that I actually don't feel excited at all to even dressed myself up. So I left house with lots of barang barang, without any form of make up nor hairdo. We got there early and checked in to the room and then had lunch in MBS. Kay, nothing much. So the slight excitement came when everyone started dolling up and finally all ready to leave for his celebration, at the ballroom. Not really excited though, just looking forward to the night where I can gather with some friends. Okay, spare the boring words.

Into the suite




Having a pool table inside the room is so awesome.


I was being a bit fickle minded because I couldn't decide if I should let my hair down or tie them up. It's hard to get good hair days where I would want to let down my hair.


All ready to go.

While we were waiting outside the ballroom;























Birthday boy down;


We decided to go for a swim at 6am and it was freezing cold. My teeth literally chattered for the entire time in the pool until we soaked into the jacuzzi.










Second day;











Lol at their pose and spot Daryl behind;





Ready for some duck faces?
Okay, that's more or less about the 3 days 2 nights for me. Feeling a little sad while Im typing away because school is bloody hell starting tomorrow. Oh man............ *wanna flip the table*. Thinking back, school days means more rest because I have been so busy with late nights out, mj session, stayovers and gatherings. I am driving my mom crazy so yeah, gonna tone down a bit and hopefully my eyebag and dark circle would tone down too. I can barely be bothered by school stuff honestly so to my last year in Poly, I just wanna scrape it through effortlessly please. Okay, I have run out of things to blog about already because life is gonna be so dead boring when school starts, rountine back. KTHXBAI.

with ferry much love,

Our First Trip; Superstar Virgo

Edric and I have always hoped to go on a trip together and ideally, somewhere fun and within my budget. With the consideration of all these, we both agreed that cruise would be the best choice just that the price offered was considered steep for a 3 days 2 nights. The price we got it online was about 800 bucks, the amount I could have paid for a Taiwan trip. So we totally forgot about going to cruise until I passed by some travelling agency, where they offered 600 bucks? I could have still gone to Taiwan but that’s not the issue. Excitedly, I told my boyf about it and we finally, really decided to go. I know nothing fascinating but I was really happy just by thinking that we could spend some alone time together and probably, reviving some sparks in our relationship. Lol it's our first trip together so it is normal to feel all excited isn't it? Anyway, things got better when we were offered a cheaper price before we booked the tickets; 400 for 3 days 2 nights. And so, we finally got our asses there.
Day 1:
We departed at night, about 9pm and first thing we did was to eat at the Mediterranean buffet. Food was so-so and then. that was the first and last time we were there. We then took a tour and explore the cruise and got back to the room and chill. Headed to the casino and that was my first time stepping into it, and I don't think I felt the right atmosphere of a casino because the casino was bloody empty. Had my first bet that day and I got out losing 80 bucks. That's it for our first day, boring day.


Second day;
Got up in the noon and missed the first stop at Malacca totally. Weather was perfect and air was fresh when I slide open the doors to the balcony. Had lunch at one of the Chinese restaurant and the food was great. We then alighted at some port in Malaysia where we both took a cab to a humogous shopping mall and since it was really huge, we told the cab to pick us up 4 hours later which was 6 pm. Pretty quickly, I bought my first pair of shoes and then.. noting much anymore. My mood got affected because nothing was there for Edric and his sad face was just intimidating. We walked on aimlessly, thinking in mind 'how the hell we are gonna survie till 6 pm when it's only 3 plus now?' and then Edric, to my surprise ,' Eh want take neo prints not?' I said yes immediately because I have always wanted but he doesnt and what's more, he was initiating. We had fun taking and decorating those pictures and it was about almost 5pm when we were done! The remaining time were then spent on eating and small shopping where Edric got me a clutch(; Board the cruise again and had our dinner at the same exact Chinese restaurant and we went for a swim after that. Wanted to catch a topless show but then we were afraid of the awkwardness. Hahaha so instead of watching that show, we went back to the casino and I recouped all my losses! And the night ended around 2am and it marked the end of the happiest day.








My favorite milk tea for now: Chatime roasted milk tea.
I can't wait to taste it again, knowing that there are outlets in Singapore.


3rd day;
We got up at around 11am, hoping to grab some lunch at the western restuarant and then came to know that we were reaching Singapore soon. Failed to do anything on the last day so we just prepare ourselves to get home. So this is our first trip and I honestly feel happy for us. I know we didnt spend the 3 days well enough but I think it is okay because there will definitely be a second time.

We slept for almost the entire that day once we got home just because we were too tired and had to attend Matthew's 21st birthday celebration the next day, which was going to last for another 3 days 2 nights. Feeling grateful(?) to the trip, I realise how much I really want to be with this person for as long as possible. Dont want to deny it, my love grew stronger over the 3 days.Unsure if it was always there but not ignited or really, the love just become stronger. Not wanting to sound like a leech but I just love to be around him 24/7.

with ferry much love,

Hello guys, I have decided to do a brief post on my 19th birthday.
Just a week before my birthday, Edric asked if there's anything I would love to do on my birthday so my replied was, ' We just go for dinner and nothing else and then head straight to home and rest(;' Yeap, I just wanted this year to be as simple as possible for I have not reason. Probably just lazy to move my ass around or maybe yknow, Singapore is way to boring to be doing anything and besides, my lovely heart just wanted some alone time for my prince and I, where I was hoping we could just cuddle under the blankets and have some heart to heart talk with sweet loving words. So anyway, all these did not happen, okay maybe some did. I had dinner with Edric but also with his entire family. Uncle and Aunty decided to treat me to a nice dinner on my birthday. My heart fluttered a little when Edric told me that because I honestly did not expect his parents to remember my birthday that sorta thing? Though I was still shy, after 3 years, to have dinner with them, I happily agreed to it. Why would I want to reject them right? Heheheh made me feel doted on. We dined at Crystal Jade Palace and the bill amounted to.. I didn't want to know either. So I didn't take any shots so here again, credits google for these pictures. At least, I try to find pictures that are almost exactly the same as what I have experienced.


Dry shark fins;

All time favourite roasted pork;


Super tasty bamboo clams;

Lobster sashimi;Longevity buns;

Other than the above, there were still other food which I didn't manage to find them via google. Lol so anyway, I wanted some alone time right, Edric decided to amend a dinner 2 days after my birthday. We stopped by Seoul Korean Charcoal BBQ Restaurant at Chijmes and had our first authentic Korean BBQ together. Everything was almost perfect and I would say the experience was superb. This time round, finally, I took some pictures which dint do justice at all to that place.







Clams and Kimchi pot;



Sliced beef and forgotten what pork;/


Potato salad;


Okay, I know food again right? That's my life kay. Anyway, if you want any details of the restaurant, you can formspring me. Till the next, see ya!

with ferry much love,

Finally took some time out for this white space, after near 2 months. I guess it is almost impossible to track back from where I have stopped so just gonna pen down some of the happy events here and I swear, I spent most of the time attending and celebrating birthdays.
So just a month back, some friends and I visited Oscar's Cafe & Terrace at Conrad hotel, to celebrate Yan Wei's 21st birthday. The international buffet was not bad I would say but it wasn't fantastic for all dishes. Pretty much disappointed with some of their seafood like , crab and mussels and surprisingly they serve good quality and fresh oysters. I'm not an oyster fan at all but I really love their juicy oysters. Apart from oysters, they have good sashimi and dessert too(: Sadly, I did not take any pictures there but here are some pictures that I have grabbed online to show you exactly how good some of the food were.

Their main entrance;



Good serving of sashimi;


Hot waffles topped with scoops of your choice and my favourite is chocolate. If you love chocolate, you wouldn't want to miss that at all. In addition, the person who was serving us was so passionate on what he was doing. Super good service with bits of entertainment.

Okay, group shot before the main entrance.
There were actually quite a few more shots but they are not with me so till the next post then!
Next post will probably be on either my birthday celebration or my first trip with my prince or Matthew's 21st birthday celebration. My space is boring (IKR) so I honestly don't know who is still reading but thanks for reading if you are! I guess the next time I will do a post will most likely be tmr or the day after tmr. Anyway, you can ask,comment anything on my formspring , http://www.formspring.me/adrenalinek


with ferry much love,

Insecurity or a sense of vulnerability or instability which threatens one's self image or ego.A person who is insecure lacks confidence in their own value, and one or more of their capabilities, lacks trust in themselves or others, or has fears that a present positive state is temporary, and will let them down and cause them loss or distress by "going wrong" in the future.

Thinking back, I don't want to feel inferior either but it doesnt seem like I can control any better, which is probably why I totally lost my cool just now. Yet again, feeling so insecure. Not sure if I have used the word correctly but now, it seems like the most appropriate word that I can use. I used to think that I am a confident and lucky girl and I think that two attributes go rather well together, to make who I am today. So what is confidence? And how do someone looks confident? To me, it's just remaining calm and protecting ego at any situation. I believe, everyone has had their intimidating moments before right? Especially, for fear of losing the one/thing they love. No matter how confident you are, you still have your vulnerability too. People may look cool on the outside or look like they dont care but how many of them really feel that metallic all the time? Or is it, during half of the time appearing cool, there were many deep thoughts and worries running through the minds. And, those were unecessary and unforseen worries containing lots of 'What if?' How confident can you be and how long can you stay to appear as it is? I cannot, for long. I have lost my ego and coolness to vulnerability or instability. A lot of people always say, ' Don't compare.' or ' Why are you comparing yourself? Everyone is different.' but this kind of thing is inevitable right? I am a human who wants to be better in any way, if I don't know what better actually is then how am I going to become better? This is also the reason why I feel inferior at times. Knowing that 'better' is like this or like that, and I can never be either or. Now having a partner, I feel even more inferior when he defines good criteria of someone else which I do not have in me. It is hard for me to admit this point but yes, because I am afriad of losing, and losing anything or anyone to a criteria which I do not have. And again, I am a human not perfect. I can't find a middle ground among everyone and please them. Just that, these are also human thoughts and feelings. Everyone is afriad of losing the things/ ones they love so I think it's only normal for me to feel this way right? Frequently, I try to keep my cool just to, not look like some petty women or just in case my ego is hurt for anyone. Today, I lost my coolness but I got a huge rock of my chest and, still having him here with me. As I stated, ' Thinking back..', I am trying to regain my coolness and at the same time, reflecting on how I can work this better. Anyway, if things are meant to be, they will.

with ferry much love,

Happy You Day, my Valentines. Wanted to find some love quotes to best represent how I feel towards you but then I think it will be best to be coming out from the bottom of my heart.
I would love to thank you for putting in effort in this relationship. Though I know, I can be very fussy, just like you, Im glad that you are always here to 'rectify' us. Knowing that things are not going to stay like when we just got together, but I truly hope the love remains the same. We can feel very annoyed at each other, but I pray that at every end of the day, we both will get reminded of how stupid it will be to fall apart because of all these trivial matter. So many things that I would love to say and to thank/sorry you for, but I dont know how to pen it down right here and I do not have the courage to tell you in your face. Most importantly, I just want you to know, dont ever think that I have stopped loving. And, I don't want to know that you have stopped either. Maybe througout, we did really love lesser. Every relationship has its doubts but yeah, just depending on how two souls can overcome them. My relationship is not perfect after all but I wouldn't say Im not happy staying here. In fact, I am happy most of the time. Though at times, we struggle and feel hopeless, we feel happy when the sadness is over. At least, if the same bad situation were to be back, we know we will make it through. Of course, when sweetness is all over, we take them for granted at times. It's mostly about give and take isnt it? Sometimes I really feel like Im out of just to keep trying. I try because it's worth it. Not complaining here but then yeah, if you know what I mean. I believe we both went through the same emotions, faced the same situations but Im just glad we are still here. It's getting a lil' emotional so I guess I shall stop writing. Hoping I would have the guts to say it right in your face, someday. I love you honey.

with ferry much love,